I wish I could have plucked my eyebrows or worn eyeliner before taking the picture. but everything was so painful back then -___-
swollen sleepy puffy soft purple eyes
I want to feel this good
Dissociation is numbness and nothingness; it is a feeling of being lost; it is floating on a cloud that threatens to suffocate; it is automatic speech and action without awareness or control; it is looking at the world and blinking to try to remove the blurry fog; it is hearing and seeing the immediate world and simultaneously feeling very far away; it is raw fear; it is unfamiliarity in familiar places; it is possession; it is being haunted everyday by unknown monsters that can be felt but not seen (at least not by others); it is looking in the mirror and not knowing who is looking back; it is fantasy and imagination; and, above all else, it is survival. Dissociation is all of these things and none of them at once.
This is the most powerful thing I’ve ever read about Dissociation. My god, yes. Thank you.